Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Hidden Post made public
The following used to be hidden, but I don't need to hide it and therefore it is being made public. It is a post from when I was drunk, so sorry for any misspellings:
(Opened on 04/02/2008)
I hope this hides everything. I don't even know what is happening to me right now. I can't even type straight. I hate being drunk, and especially hate alcohol. I don't even remember most of the night which is not good. I remember Mark saying I may just be acting drunk and just actually tire, but he said that near the end. I am so tired I don't even know what I am typing fully. I know that I am completely intoxicated and that I hate it. I remember typing something on my cell. It says:
"The question is, do you like math more than teaching? Cause you are already on the path to be a teacher. Do you want to give up that in order to pursue math even though you know it won't get you very far. Do you want to teach your children or what. Will you even be able to do that? Can you teach your own children? Or are you forced to be a math geek forever? I prefer math. Math all the way. I hope I remember in the morning."
That is all. I am tired and eating an apple. I have lecture in the morning so I am off to bed. Good night.
-Aram the Garmo
(Opened on 04/02/2008)
I hope this hides everything. I don't even know what is happening to me right now. I can't even type straight. I hate being drunk, and especially hate alcohol. I don't even remember most of the night which is not good. I remember Mark saying I may just be acting drunk and just actually tire, but he said that near the end. I am so tired I don't even know what I am typing fully. I know that I am completely intoxicated and that I hate it. I remember typing something on my cell. It says:
"The question is, do you like math more than teaching? Cause you are already on the path to be a teacher. Do you want to give up that in order to pursue math even though you know it won't get you very far. Do you want to teach your children or what. Will you even be able to do that? Can you teach your own children? Or are you forced to be a math geek forever? I prefer math. Math all the way. I hope I remember in the morning."
That is all. I am tired and eating an apple. I have lecture in the morning so I am off to bed. Good night.
-Aram the Garmo
Review of "Touch of Pink"
So, I will try and review something once a week, and will usually be artsy/gay or something I'm interested in reviewing.
The movie starts from present day, 2004, where Alim is invited to his cousin's wedding. In order to get Alim to come over Nuru flies from Toronto to London, where Alim is now living, in order to reconnect with her son. By this point Alim has already found the man of his dreams, Giles played by Kristen Holden-Ried. Nuru of course doesn't know that her son Alim is gay and so Alim and Giles pretend that they are only friends throughout the whole time Nuru visits. The mother constantly tells Alim that she is waiting for him to find a nice muslim girl for himself just like his cousin Khaled has. Of course, this constant intertwinning in personal lives causes great disruption between Nuru, Alim, and Giles. Giles gets hurt by Alim due to Alim refusing to come out of the closet even remotely to his mother, and Nuru feels ashamed of Alim because he refuses to find a girl and only focuses on his work. Eventually it all breaks down into Giles leaving Alim and Alim coming out of the closet to his mother.
Nuru of course cannot handle the news and leaves back to Toronto immediately. Alim heartbroken by both sides of his life decides that maybe going to his cousin's marriage would not be such a bad idea. After Alim coming back, Nuru comes to her senses and eventually accepts Alim for being gay and is happy that Alim and Giles are together.
Of course that would be the way the story goes. Suddenly the mom, out of no where, is forced to defend her son and so she realises how much she loves him. And through this act of devotion she realises she is stupid and fully loves him in the same way as she once did. I find this sort of ridiculous though. I guess I am wanting a movie to relate real life somewhat, because I feel this is not the way life goes. I wish my life was as simple as that, but it isn't. After coming out to my mom she was accepting, which was more than Nuru could manage, but the difference is that the love never became the same. My mom basically had asked me to stay in the closet after coming out and also blamed everything I did on being gay. Instead of defending the person she loved she began an attack campaign. Afterward nothing I ever did was ever good enough. And she still refuses to let me just be who I am around my relatives. This is more of the fact that she is afraid what they will think of her, but it still is the issue of her not being behind me 100%. You would think a mother's love would go a long way, but apparently my mother's doesn't even reach her heart. Either way at least she pretends to love me and that is all that matters I guess.
The acting in the film was amazing. I think the mother was in fact one of the better actors of the lot. She was readily available to change emotions and kept those emotions perfectly. She put the right emphasis on the correct areas and did not create a monotonic emotional ring in which everything was either strong or soft. Jimi was I think one of the worse actors in the play. He seemed unable to really show frustration and mainly used high school drama tricks in order to portray his character. He really needed to work on character development to see what had happened in his life to lead him to London. Kristen also did a fairly good job. Although he seemed to only have two emotions the whole time, he handled them very well.
If you are gay, or enjoy a little gay romantic comedy, then I would recommend this movie to you. I personally hope to eventually have this film in my movie catalogue so I can watch whenever I want a pick me up.
-Aram the Garmo
Todays review is on "Touch of Pink". This movie is a gay film that takes place in both London, England, and Toronto, Canada. It follows the coming out of a muslim boy, named Alim and played by Jimi Mistry, who grew up in Toronto and moved to London. Alim's mother, Nuru who is played by the amazing Suleka Mathew, is born in Africa and grows up dreaming of becoming like Doris Day from the films during her time. A few years after Alim is born his father dies and so Nuru and Alim move to England. Due to persecution Nuru and Alim move to Toronto where Alim is raised. Nuru also liked watching Cary Grant films and this manifests in Alim in the form of an invisible friend for Alim. This spirit of Cary Grant, played by Kyle MacLachlan, walks around with Alim and helps him in his life adventures. |  |
The movie starts from present day, 2004, where Alim is invited to his cousin's wedding. In order to get Alim to come over Nuru flies from Toronto to London, where Alim is now living, in order to reconnect with her son. By this point Alim has already found the man of his dreams, Giles played by Kristen Holden-Ried. Nuru of course doesn't know that her son Alim is gay and so Alim and Giles pretend that they are only friends throughout the whole time Nuru visits. The mother constantly tells Alim that she is waiting for him to find a nice muslim girl for himself just like his cousin Khaled has. Of course, this constant intertwinning in personal lives causes great disruption between Nuru, Alim, and Giles. Giles gets hurt by Alim due to Alim refusing to come out of the closet even remotely to his mother, and Nuru feels ashamed of Alim because he refuses to find a girl and only focuses on his work. Eventually it all breaks down into Giles leaving Alim and Alim coming out of the closet to his mother.
Nuru of course cannot handle the news and leaves back to Toronto immediately. Alim heartbroken by both sides of his life decides that maybe going to his cousin's marriage would not be such a bad idea. After Alim coming back, Nuru comes to her senses and eventually accepts Alim for being gay and is happy that Alim and Giles are together.
Of course that would be the way the story goes. Suddenly the mom, out of no where, is forced to defend her son and so she realises how much she loves him. And through this act of devotion she realises she is stupid and fully loves him in the same way as she once did. I find this sort of ridiculous though. I guess I am wanting a movie to relate real life somewhat, because I feel this is not the way life goes. I wish my life was as simple as that, but it isn't. After coming out to my mom she was accepting, which was more than Nuru could manage, but the difference is that the love never became the same. My mom basically had asked me to stay in the closet after coming out and also blamed everything I did on being gay. Instead of defending the person she loved she began an attack campaign. Afterward nothing I ever did was ever good enough. And she still refuses to let me just be who I am around my relatives. This is more of the fact that she is afraid what they will think of her, but it still is the issue of her not being behind me 100%. You would think a mother's love would go a long way, but apparently my mother's doesn't even reach her heart. Either way at least she pretends to love me and that is all that matters I guess.
The acting in the film was amazing. I think the mother was in fact one of the better actors of the lot. She was readily available to change emotions and kept those emotions perfectly. She put the right emphasis on the correct areas and did not create a monotonic emotional ring in which everything was either strong or soft. Jimi was I think one of the worse actors in the play. He seemed unable to really show frustration and mainly used high school drama tricks in order to portray his character. He really needed to work on character development to see what had happened in his life to lead him to London. Kristen also did a fairly good job. Although he seemed to only have two emotions the whole time, he handled them very well.
If you are gay, or enjoy a little gay romantic comedy, then I would recommend this movie to you. I personally hope to eventually have this film in my movie catalogue so I can watch whenever I want a pick me up.
-Aram the Garmo
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Review of "Vitus"
Obviously, I am not going to review everyday since I am officially busy again. Sorry about that. But anyway, let me begin.
So "Vitus" was a movie about the life of a child prodigy. At around the age of 6 vitus von holzen is able to play the piano as well as many famous pianists. It follows his life as he is forced to play the piano in order to 'improve himself' and also tracks his family as they go into new business ventures.
Vitus' dad, Leo, is an inventor who has created a new hearing aide, which can be used as a fasion accessory. His invention becomes popular and causes Leo to start making money allowing the Von Holzens to upgrade in society. Due to Leo's success in life, Vitus is neglected from his family. In order to ensure Vitus' safety at home while Leo and wife Helen are away they hire a baby sitter, Isabel. Vitus falls in love with Isabel, but Isabel is fired from baby sitting due to an incident in which she is found drinking with Vitus. At this time Vitus is 6 years old and Isabel is a mature 12 year old.
The movie then jumps 6 years in the future in which the family is now upper class and Helen is the one taking care of Vitus and forcing him to play piano constantly. Eventually Vitus gets sick of it and attempts to kill himself by jumping off the balcony. Luckily, or some may say unfortunately, he was not successful in his suicide attempt and ended up with no major injuries but had a concussion. From here, Vitus took the opportunity and started to pretend he was a normal kid and did not show any genious. While pretending though, Vitus' grandfather finds out of the fib that Vitus is portraying. The grandfather of course keeps his secret which he promises to keep until he hits his death bed. Vitus then wants to help his grandfather so he basically solves the stock market and starts to use it to his advantage changing his grandfather's $340,000 into $3,700,000 overnight using stocks. Vitus then creates a company under his grandfather's name and starts making money for his grandfather and himself, all this time pretending he was just normal. Eventually, the grandfather dies and in doing so sends a letter to Vitus' parents revealing everything, allowing Vitus to come out and tell the truth about everything. This revelation of truth allows Vitus to save his dad from getting fired from his company, which occured once new management came around, and also to make his long time love, Isabel, fall in love with him.
The movie was an extraordinary film. I loved the film very much. It was a Swiss film, and had subtitles which made it that much more exciting. I liked the concept of watching a genius just want to be normal just like everyone else. It shows that in the end we need to accept who we are and just yell it to everyone, instead of trying to conform to society and what our idea of normality is. The portrayal of this using a genius was what made this film unique. You usually see this sort of portrayal occuring when someone has nothing at all and has to be themselves in order to prosper and become to have everything they want. It was a good thing to see that people who already 'have everything' want to just be normal also. This is what I'll probably take from this film.
The portrayal of the mother as 'losing everything' once Vitus pretends to be normal is also a heartwrenching one. The mother who had everything she could ever want from a child, and was in essence spoiled from the events, was destroyed because he became 'normal'. Helen could no longer accept Vitus even though he was still his child and was even a 'little above average' and completely healthy. Instead she punished herself for having him not continue to be a genious. She felt it was partially her fault and hated that her son was no longer perfect in her eyes. She could not accept him for who he was. I personally felt a huge connection with the mother. As I was home over this past christmas holiday I noticed my mother was going through the same thing. During my high school years I had been a very good child. I got good grades, I behaved well, followed instructions most of the time, and was respectful. Of course once I came out of the closet it hurt my mom and she now thinks I am no longer perfect. Of course this is not even the reason why she is bad. I spoiled her because I was so good to her. Now my brother, who is a completely normal teenager, is showing her what normality really is and my mother can't handle it. She wonders what she did wrong with him, when in fact she did nothing wrong with him, he just happens to be 'normal'. It's as if she got used to such a good child, that she no longer wanted normal, just like Vitus' mother. But just like Vitus, we all just want our parents to be happy, but must also look after ourselves.
In the end, I personally enjoyed this film and would watch it countless times again. I recommend it to anyone who needs a good heartwarming film with meaning, and was not produced in America.
-Aram the Garmo
So "Vitus" was a movie about the life of a child prodigy. At around the age of 6 vitus von holzen is able to play the piano as well as many famous pianists. It follows his life as he is forced to play the piano in order to 'improve himself' and also tracks his family as they go into new business ventures.
Vitus' dad, Leo, is an inventor who has created a new hearing aide, which can be used as a fasion accessory. His invention becomes popular and causes Leo to start making money allowing the Von Holzens to upgrade in society. Due to Leo's success in life, Vitus is neglected from his family. In order to ensure Vitus' safety at home while Leo and wife Helen are away they hire a baby sitter, Isabel. Vitus falls in love with Isabel, but Isabel is fired from baby sitting due to an incident in which she is found drinking with Vitus. At this time Vitus is 6 years old and Isabel is a mature 12 year old.
The movie then jumps 6 years in the future in which the family is now upper class and Helen is the one taking care of Vitus and forcing him to play piano constantly. Eventually Vitus gets sick of it and attempts to kill himself by jumping off the balcony. Luckily, or some may say unfortunately, he was not successful in his suicide attempt and ended up with no major injuries but had a concussion. From here, Vitus took the opportunity and started to pretend he was a normal kid and did not show any genious. While pretending though, Vitus' grandfather finds out of the fib that Vitus is portraying. The grandfather of course keeps his secret which he promises to keep until he hits his death bed. Vitus then wants to help his grandfather so he basically solves the stock market and starts to use it to his advantage changing his grandfather's $340,000 into $3,700,000 overnight using stocks. Vitus then creates a company under his grandfather's name and starts making money for his grandfather and himself, all this time pretending he was just normal. Eventually, the grandfather dies and in doing so sends a letter to Vitus' parents revealing everything, allowing Vitus to come out and tell the truth about everything. This revelation of truth allows Vitus to save his dad from getting fired from his company, which occured once new management came around, and also to make his long time love, Isabel, fall in love with him.
The movie was an extraordinary film. I loved the film very much. It was a Swiss film, and had subtitles which made it that much more exciting. I liked the concept of watching a genius just want to be normal just like everyone else. It shows that in the end we need to accept who we are and just yell it to everyone, instead of trying to conform to society and what our idea of normality is. The portrayal of this using a genius was what made this film unique. You usually see this sort of portrayal occuring when someone has nothing at all and has to be themselves in order to prosper and become to have everything they want. It was a good thing to see that people who already 'have everything' want to just be normal also. This is what I'll probably take from this film.
The portrayal of the mother as 'losing everything' once Vitus pretends to be normal is also a heartwrenching one. The mother who had everything she could ever want from a child, and was in essence spoiled from the events, was destroyed because he became 'normal'. Helen could no longer accept Vitus even though he was still his child and was even a 'little above average' and completely healthy. Instead she punished herself for having him not continue to be a genious. She felt it was partially her fault and hated that her son was no longer perfect in her eyes. She could not accept him for who he was. I personally felt a huge connection with the mother. As I was home over this past christmas holiday I noticed my mother was going through the same thing. During my high school years I had been a very good child. I got good grades, I behaved well, followed instructions most of the time, and was respectful. Of course once I came out of the closet it hurt my mom and she now thinks I am no longer perfect. Of course this is not even the reason why she is bad. I spoiled her because I was so good to her. Now my brother, who is a completely normal teenager, is showing her what normality really is and my mother can't handle it. She wonders what she did wrong with him, when in fact she did nothing wrong with him, he just happens to be 'normal'. It's as if she got used to such a good child, that she no longer wanted normal, just like Vitus' mother. But just like Vitus, we all just want our parents to be happy, but must also look after ourselves.
In the end, I personally enjoyed this film and would watch it countless times again. I recommend it to anyone who needs a good heartwarming film with meaning, and was not produced in America.
-Aram the Garmo
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Review of "A Secret Edge" by Robin Reardon
I am going to try and put up a post almost everyday by either reviewing something I saw, read, or visited. I won't always have something up, but I hope to keep going for a while.
"A Secret Edge" by Robin Reardon
This happened to be the first romance book I have read in a very long time. If I recall it is also the first gay romance I have ever read and I must say it's decent. The plot was about a boy, Jason Peele, who is just figuring out he is gay and is coming out of the closet. It goes follows his life as he tries to keep his lead in track, stays away from bullies, comes out of the closet, and falls in love. Reardon begins the book automatically showing the confusion of Jason Peele by showing the wet dreams he has of David Bowie. Jason then goes through and tries to figure out who he is and along the way he meets an Indian, named Raj, who is also on the track team and they fallin love. While their relationship grows, both Raj and Jason learn from each other and mutually grow as their personalities conflict. Jason learns about Gandhi and the imporance of keeping true to himself and Raj learns to be more humble. While the love unfolds things of course happen in Jason's life. He comes out to his aunt and uncle (his parents are dead from an accident when Jason was 2), and how they treat his coming out. It also fallows school bullies and how they go after gay kids in schools. It also shows Jason making wrong decisions while being a teenager.
It seems the book is mainly geared toward the teenage crowd. The writing seems very simplistic and extremely easy to read. Reardon occasionaly skips important steps in the plot and assumes that the audience will just be able to follow. At some points I had to go back just to understand what was happening as sometimes between two sentences 10 minutes have passed without a mention of what happened. The book was also very unrealistic. The love affair between Raj and Jason seemed to not reflect reality, and the high school that Jason went to also seemed unrealistic. Almost everyone in Jason's life was understanding of him being gay which does not generally happen in modern day life in California. Even with the fallacies in logic, taking the fictional roller coaster of emotions was very good. It made you wish a world like this did in fact exist in which bullies were easily scared and where half of the track team was gay. Unfortunately that day is long ways away and we will wait for it to come.
As this book is concerned, I would say if you are bored with nothing else to do then it is worth picking up and having a read through of it. If you are not very bored and have other things to do, then I wouldn't really bother with this book.
-Aram the Garmo
"A Secret Edge" by Robin Reardon
This happened to be the first romance book I have read in a very long time. If I recall it is also the first gay romance I have ever read and I must say it's decent. The plot was about a boy, Jason Peele, who is just figuring out he is gay and is coming out of the closet. It goes follows his life as he tries to keep his lead in track, stays away from bullies, comes out of the closet, and falls in love. Reardon begins the book automatically showing the confusion of Jason Peele by showing the wet dreams he has of David Bowie. Jason then goes through and tries to figure out who he is and along the way he meets an Indian, named Raj, who is also on the track team and they fallin love. While their relationship grows, both Raj and Jason learn from each other and mutually grow as their personalities conflict. Jason learns about Gandhi and the imporance of keeping true to himself and Raj learns to be more humble. While the love unfolds things of course happen in Jason's life. He comes out to his aunt and uncle (his parents are dead from an accident when Jason was 2), and how they treat his coming out. It also fallows school bullies and how they go after gay kids in schools. It also shows Jason making wrong decisions while being a teenager.
It seems the book is mainly geared toward the teenage crowd. The writing seems very simplistic and extremely easy to read. Reardon occasionaly skips important steps in the plot and assumes that the audience will just be able to follow. At some points I had to go back just to understand what was happening as sometimes between two sentences 10 minutes have passed without a mention of what happened. The book was also very unrealistic. The love affair between Raj and Jason seemed to not reflect reality, and the high school that Jason went to also seemed unrealistic. Almost everyone in Jason's life was understanding of him being gay which does not generally happen in modern day life in California. Even with the fallacies in logic, taking the fictional roller coaster of emotions was very good. It made you wish a world like this did in fact exist in which bullies were easily scared and where half of the track team was gay. Unfortunately that day is long ways away and we will wait for it to come.
As this book is concerned, I would say if you are bored with nothing else to do then it is worth picking up and having a read through of it. If you are not very bored and have other things to do, then I wouldn't really bother with this book.
-Aram the Garmo
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
CES and afterthoughts
So this past weekend I went to the International Consumer Electronics Show held in Las Vegas, and let me tell you how amazing it was. From the moment we stepped into Vegas I felt like I was home. With the bright lights, loud music, tons of shopping, and things to do for almost everyone, Vegas seemed like paradise. I quickly became excited about the coming day and a half that I would be spending at CES and all the prospectives of looking at brand new gear and finally finishing up my knowledge on computer technology to enable me to build a good gaming computer. Another wonderful thing that I could not wait about CES was the number of guys I would see. It has been well known in the past that I have a thing for nerdy looking engineers, especially the computer science types. And with over 140,000 people being at CES, I figured I would not be the only gay one at CES.
The next day began the wonderful CES! I had been looking forward to this for quite a while. I would finally be able to see all of the latest gadgets that are coming out for computers and I would be able to expand my knowledge on how a lot of things worked. I of course started automatically in the gamers section. They had the coolest stuff ever. They had 3d monitors, mice that allowed you to move the screen three dimensionally, and new online games that you can play for real money. In fact I was talking to one of the games so long they gave me a free $5 starting card! Talk about free money. Of course there were some awesome gadgets and stuff, but you know me, I only took pictures of the pretty decorations:
We had been at CES from 9 in the morning until around 4 in the afternoon which was when we started to feel tired. This was also around the time that my first encounter occurred. Up until this point I had had no gay sightings. I had began to wonder if i really was the only gay person who was at CES. You would think that there would be at least one other person right? And, of course, there were. We were standing at the LG booth, and I was arguing with my mother because she was being stupid again about ice cream (she likes to get into pointless arguments), and in the middle of the argument I catch eyes with a good looking guy as he walks by. I think nothing of it since that happens on occasion with a lot of people. What was interesting though was that once I stopped talking to my mother I noticed that the guy kept looking at me as he was walking away. So we had a sort of stare at each other and just sort of shared a moment of, "are you gay?" Well, at least that's what was going through my mind. My mom at this point said that I could have a few more minutes to roam around if I wanted so, naturally, I went in the driection I saw the guy go. Of course, being the stupid person I am, as I was walking the direction he had just gone I noticed that I was walking past him. He passed by me while I was walking toward him! That means he was walking back to find me, and we had both missed each other, AGAIN! So as I look back I notice he doesn't turn around, which means he didn't notice me, just like I didn't notice him. And this is where Aram makes the stupidest mistake in the history of the world. I just stand there waiting. I didn't know what I was waiting for, but I waited until he was out of vision. After a few seconds I decided to go after him. At this point I could not find him at all, and hope seemed to disappear. Only seconds later I was taken away by mother and we left CES for the day.
While I was still agonizing about missing my chance with the boy my parents, my uncle, and my aunt decided they wanted to eat at the restaurant in the eiffel tower. Of course I was in such a transe I paid no attention as to what was happening around me, I just followed stupidly into wherever we were going. It was until we sat down that I really noticed that I was not hungry at all. I also noticed that each plate cost around $50 and was wondering how we were going to afford this. So since I wasn't hungry, and I thought we couldn't afford any of this, I decided to just get something small. I looked at the salads, and nothing looked interesting. I looked at the appetisers, and again nothing looked interesting. I looked at the sides and noticed potato gratin, and so I ordered that. It was a side dish that cost $10! but whatever. At this point my Mom asked why I wasn't eating. I just gave her a look, and of course she automatically thought that it meant it was because of the prices. I mean yeah, the prices had an influence in my decision, but in reality I would have eaten that little anywhere we went. I wasn't hungry for one, and for second I was sick to my stomach as to not having followed the guy.
Ok, time for a side note. The reason I was sick to my stomach about the guy needs mentioning. I had not had a look like that from a guy in so long, I had forgotten how it can move you. This guy was the first guy in about 2 years who actually gave me the look and swept me off my feet so fast I lost track of everything around me. My mind has been filled with nothing but that glance for around 3 days now. I was sick because I did not have the guts to go after the guy quick enough to get his number or anything. I was sick because I had let the only opportunity I had ever been given for the past year or so to slip away and to not know when the next time I would meet someone like him again. My chance had come, and I had failed to act. That is why I was sick to my stomach. It was because I had failed, and would now lead a miserable life for not knowing what could have happened.
Back to the story though. So my mom thought it was because of the food even though it wasn't. But I ate the potato gratin (more like forceably ate) and enjoyed the flavor, except the smell of the cheese made me want to throw up. (I mentioned that when I'm sick to my stomach I literally mean it right?). So I sat there and tried to organize my thoughts, and since my cousin didn't come I had no one to enjoy the night with, so I was all alone. It didn't help that I had been alone all day, and no one had spoken a word to me most of the evening anyway. So once my parents noticed they tried to incorporate me into the conversation; that allowed me to at least stop fully thinking about this guy. We ate, and my mom went gambling as Ray and I went out shopping for the night. I bought Steven a present for xmas that I hope he likes and kept thinking. Eventually my parents decided it was time to leave, of course not fulfilling their promise to see Planet Hollywood. Upon that mention, they decided we should go to Planet Hollywood.
So we end up going home, me still bummed out about this guy, and completely dissatisfied that I couldn't find him. I was hoping I would get lucky with my four hours there on Tuesday.
Tuesday started out slow. We didn't even get to the convention centre until 9 which meant I only had 3 hours to find the guy with the assumption that it was even possible. I first went to the Sands Expo, cause I really wanted to and found it to be a disappointment. I think while there I saw two gay guys though. They were cute, but seemed to be a couple and very stuck up so it wasn't worth it. I then quickly headed over to the center hall which is where I had seen the guy earlier. I walked around hoping to find him. In the end I just started looking at products since my hope in finding him was gone. I saw some cool things here also. I saw flat panel monitors that look amazing. I was finally convinced that HD was worth buying, and I realised that I would probably never be a good gamer. I had forgotten how I can't control the mouse very well in first person shooters. The last booth I ended up going to was NBC's booth. They were giving away 2gb flash drives (score) and I found another cute gay guy who was doing the hair of one of the correspondents on the show Extra!. He was cute, and I think he even noticed me, but he wasn't interested it seemed since he never gave me another look.
So with that disappointing day, I was sad to leave because I hadn't really gone too much in depth with most of the products to be excited, and since I couldn't pursue the one gay guy who gave me hope that one day I may actually find true love.
With hope,
Aram the Garmo
 Look at the glass flowers hanging from the Ceiling! | So we get to Las Vegas on Sunday and sort of do a little bit of sight seeing. We go to Treasure Island first, and notice some nice designs throughout the hotel. After a quick glance we take a tram over to the Mirage, which I fancy a good deal more. This got quickly boring though, and so we drove over to the Bellagio. It wasn't that far of a walk, but the parents wanted to drive. I guess they like to help with global warming or something like that. So we headed to the Bellagio and my mom wanted to do some gambling so she went to the penny slots and my stepdad and I looked at some of the marvelous scenary. I really liked Bellagio so far the best. It was the most elegant and had the most amount of fun it looked like. The restaurant's inside were very nice to look at and the atmosphere was very enjoyable. I probably couldn't have afforded this place anyway, but it was an amazing place to see. We ended up waiting here for my aunt and uncle to come from Los Angeles. This was about the time they finally told us that my cousin wasn't coming, so I was on my own for entertainment. |
  Bellagio still had Christmas Decorations! |
The next day began the wonderful CES! I had been looking forward to this for quite a while. I would finally be able to see all of the latest gadgets that are coming out for computers and I would be able to expand my knowledge on how a lot of things worked. I of course started automatically in the gamers section. They had the coolest stuff ever. They had 3d monitors, mice that allowed you to move the screen three dimensionally, and new online games that you can play for real money. In fact I was talking to one of the games so long they gave me a free $5 starting card! Talk about free money. Of course there were some awesome gadgets and stuff, but you know me, I only took pictures of the pretty decorations:
 A ship advertising Pirates of the Carribean on Blu-Ray |  Transformers, with a license plate that says FXpert. Don't remember who put this up though |
 Of course there were good looking cars here too. |  And a car with video's for the people to the sides and back. |
We had been at CES from 9 in the morning until around 4 in the afternoon which was when we started to feel tired. This was also around the time that my first encounter occurred. Up until this point I had had no gay sightings. I had began to wonder if i really was the only gay person who was at CES. You would think that there would be at least one other person right? And, of course, there were. We were standing at the LG booth, and I was arguing with my mother because she was being stupid again about ice cream (she likes to get into pointless arguments), and in the middle of the argument I catch eyes with a good looking guy as he walks by. I think nothing of it since that happens on occasion with a lot of people. What was interesting though was that once I stopped talking to my mother I noticed that the guy kept looking at me as he was walking away. So we had a sort of stare at each other and just sort of shared a moment of, "are you gay?" Well, at least that's what was going through my mind. My mom at this point said that I could have a few more minutes to roam around if I wanted so, naturally, I went in the driection I saw the guy go. Of course, being the stupid person I am, as I was walking the direction he had just gone I noticed that I was walking past him. He passed by me while I was walking toward him! That means he was walking back to find me, and we had both missed each other, AGAIN! So as I look back I notice he doesn't turn around, which means he didn't notice me, just like I didn't notice him. And this is where Aram makes the stupidest mistake in the history of the world. I just stand there waiting. I didn't know what I was waiting for, but I waited until he was out of vision. After a few seconds I decided to go after him. At this point I could not find him at all, and hope seemed to disappear. Only seconds later I was taken away by mother and we left CES for the day.
That night I had wanted to go to Paris and Planet Hollywood, and since the parents had no objections, that's where we went. We first went to paris which had amazing decorations. My favorite part was the villages that were created. Again, I did not take any pictures of that, instead I took a picture of a chandelier. I need to stop taking stupid pictures. |  The Paris Chandelier |
While I was still agonizing about missing my chance with the boy my parents, my uncle, and my aunt decided they wanted to eat at the restaurant in the eiffel tower. Of course I was in such a transe I paid no attention as to what was happening around me, I just followed stupidly into wherever we were going. It was until we sat down that I really noticed that I was not hungry at all. I also noticed that each plate cost around $50 and was wondering how we were going to afford this. So since I wasn't hungry, and I thought we couldn't afford any of this, I decided to just get something small. I looked at the salads, and nothing looked interesting. I looked at the appetisers, and again nothing looked interesting. I looked at the sides and noticed potato gratin, and so I ordered that. It was a side dish that cost $10! but whatever. At this point my Mom asked why I wasn't eating. I just gave her a look, and of course she automatically thought that it meant it was because of the prices. I mean yeah, the prices had an influence in my decision, but in reality I would have eaten that little anywhere we went. I wasn't hungry for one, and for second I was sick to my stomach as to not having followed the guy.
Ok, time for a side note. The reason I was sick to my stomach about the guy needs mentioning. I had not had a look like that from a guy in so long, I had forgotten how it can move you. This guy was the first guy in about 2 years who actually gave me the look and swept me off my feet so fast I lost track of everything around me. My mind has been filled with nothing but that glance for around 3 days now. I was sick because I did not have the guts to go after the guy quick enough to get his number or anything. I was sick because I had let the only opportunity I had ever been given for the past year or so to slip away and to not know when the next time I would meet someone like him again. My chance had come, and I had failed to act. That is why I was sick to my stomach. It was because I had failed, and would now lead a miserable life for not knowing what could have happened.
Back to the story though. So my mom thought it was because of the food even though it wasn't. But I ate the potato gratin (more like forceably ate) and enjoyed the flavor, except the smell of the cheese made me want to throw up. (I mentioned that when I'm sick to my stomach I literally mean it right?). So I sat there and tried to organize my thoughts, and since my cousin didn't come I had no one to enjoy the night with, so I was all alone. It didn't help that I had been alone all day, and no one had spoken a word to me most of the evening anyway. So once my parents noticed they tried to incorporate me into the conversation; that allowed me to at least stop fully thinking about this guy. We ate, and my mom went gambling as Ray and I went out shopping for the night. I bought Steven a present for xmas that I hope he likes and kept thinking. Eventually my parents decided it was time to leave, of course not fulfilling their promise to see Planet Hollywood. Upon that mention, they decided we should go to Planet Hollywood.
 Yes Another Chandelier | Planet Hollywood was amazing. Talk about the perfect place for someone of my age. The best part though was the idea that there was a gay club somewhere, which was the true reason I wanted to go there. Of course when I walked in, it seemed very straight instead. There was a strip club upstairs, and dancers on some of the poker tables strutting their stuff. Talk about very hetero, but sex geared. I thought since they were this sexual, they could potentially have a gay club, so I kept my hopes up. As we walked around I noticed the atmosphere was amazing. This was a hotel that I would love to stay at. The lighting was fun, the decorations were animated, the music was hip, and the atmosphere was young. Too bad it seemed pretty empty, but whatever. There were more chandeliers to photograph and tons of shopping! |
 What a cool shape! |
And of course we shopped while there. I didn't actually do any actually shopping since my parents and uncle/aunt seemed to want to go home, so instead I just walked by to see what kind of stores they had. They had a few good stores, but a lot of them were not very good. They need to up their stores if they want me staying there for longer than a day! But at this point I was losing hope though. Halfway through my parents were getting sick of walking and wanted to go home and I still had not found my gay club that I was looking for. So as they walked into a christmas store I stole away and found guest services. The women there was so stupid. I asked her I was looking for nightlife. I was trying to be mildly flamboyant so she can know that I was gay, but for some reason, my flamboyancy obviously wasn't enough (does anyone know how people can think I'm straight!?!?! I thought that was impossible) because she gave me flyers to straight clubs. Of course one of them offered free breast implants and I joke with her if I would look good in a cup size C. She told me I should go for B's (ouch). But after that I told her that these clubs weren't exactly what I was looking for (trying to hint I wanted the gay ones), but of course she was utterly stupid. I think she thought I was trying to find an escort service or something because she said that she doesn't have information on "those kind of stuff." At this point I thought it was funny that she thought I wanted to sleep with women and couldn't help but just walk away without even saying anything, barely able to control my laughter. Apparently I'm not very gay. We ended up walking through the whole mall there and I couldn't find the nightclub, so I decided it was ok that I go home with them. (A minor point, I persisted in looking for the gay club and going to Planet Hollywood in the main hope that I may see that boy again, yes I am that desperate to find love, or at least someone attracted to me) Side Note: Pictures on the side are of Aladdin which is where Planet Hollywood currently stands. They "took down" Aladdin and are remodeling it and calling it Planet Hollywood. |  Some architecture |
 I like how the sky looks real, even though it's fake! |
So we end up going home, me still bummed out about this guy, and completely dissatisfied that I couldn't find him. I was hoping I would get lucky with my four hours there on Tuesday.
Tuesday started out slow. We didn't even get to the convention centre until 9 which meant I only had 3 hours to find the guy with the assumption that it was even possible. I first went to the Sands Expo, cause I really wanted to and found it to be a disappointment. I think while there I saw two gay guys though. They were cute, but seemed to be a couple and very stuck up so it wasn't worth it. I then quickly headed over to the center hall which is where I had seen the guy earlier. I walked around hoping to find him. In the end I just started looking at products since my hope in finding him was gone. I saw some cool things here also. I saw flat panel monitors that look amazing. I was finally convinced that HD was worth buying, and I realised that I would probably never be a good gamer. I had forgotten how I can't control the mouse very well in first person shooters. The last booth I ended up going to was NBC's booth. They were giving away 2gb flash drives (score) and I found another cute gay guy who was doing the hair of one of the correspondents on the show Extra!. He was cute, and I think he even noticed me, but he wasn't interested it seemed since he never gave me another look.
So with that disappointing day, I was sad to leave because I hadn't really gone too much in depth with most of the products to be excited, and since I couldn't pursue the one gay guy who gave me hope that one day I may actually find true love.
With hope,
Aram the Garmo
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